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I Am Allowed To Grieve

Posted by Carrie on July 29, 2019 at 12:20 AM

Today was a difficult day!

I awoke with the intent to prepare for service and join my Hubby in worship. He had to rush out before me and I was left with my thoughts. Suddenly it dawned on me where I was going and what day it was!

Let me give you a little backdrop to the day. In the past few months we have had several passing of family members and friends. In the past 5 days, we have celebrated two homegoings at this particular house of worship, a family member and a close friend. My feelings are already erratic, but in check. Then it hits me like a ton of bricks. This day to the day 3 years ago I went to this same house of worship to say my final goodbyes to my mother and best friend. Like a torrent, my emotions burst through and I found myself paralyzed with grief. I sat down in almost a stupor as tears flooded my cheeks, my mind went silent, and I could only sit and stare.

I was still sitting there in tears when my husband returned home. Not wanting to distress him further, I retreated to my home office and sat down at my desk. My hand moved like an automaton and launched one of my devotional websites….Our Daily Bread. Can I tell you that in the midst of your discombobulation, GOD is there! My eyes glanced toward the bottom of the page and there it was…a link…the book “Life After Loss, Grieving with Hope”! Praise God!

Just reading the introduction brought comfort to me! You might say, what’s my problem? It’s been 3 years! But this day I realize I have been so focused on being ‘strong’ for my Dad, for my Daughter, for my Uncles, Cousins, etc., etc., etc., I had not allowed myself to fully grieve. I certainly couldn’t allow my spiritual family to see my hurt. I had to keep moving forward! Well guess what! I was stagnant and didn’t even realize it! I thank GOD for speaking to me, calling me to acknowledge where I am and showing Himself as the GOD OF ALL COMFORT in the midst of my pain.

Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. 2Co 1:3-4 KJV

Okay, the reason for this post is that maybe someone reading it felt as I did and never allowed themselves to fully grieve. Maybe you feel guilty for hurting, especially if you believe the one you are grieving for has made known their decision to follow Christ Jesus and their suffering is over. I want to let you know that you are not alone. GOD will comfort you! And you are allowed to grieve!

You can find the link to a free download of the book below. I haven’t finished it yet! So I can’t critique it for you. Check it out for yourself and see what GOD speaks to you!


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